I hate this feeling of helplessness that I always come across. Now matter how many days, weeks, months or years go by I always find myself hitting the same wall over and over again. I mean, how many times have I wrote about this problem here? Millions, perhaps. So many times that I'm surprised that people haven't given up on me.
I need to do art, I want to, and then when I get that feeling that makes me go, "Yeah I can do it!" I just fall back into the same lazy pattern that I've gotten accustomed to. Where I just can't be bothered to pick up a pencil, let alone look at a blank page. Why can't I just keep that enthusiastic part of myself running for more than just a day? What happened to the time where I just loved to draw and kept doing it day after day? I've always dreamed of doing art, of becoming a good artist one day, but something is holding me back...
Truth is, I really don't know what that "something" is.
Is it because of the lack of tutor? Guidance? Someone to help me each step of the way? Sure I did a hell of a lot more art when I was doing it for my GCSE's, and did many pictures when I was applying for uni. Or is it my lack of self-confidence? Skill? What the hell is holding me back? D: Whenever I listen to music or watch a film I find myself daydreaming, yet I never seem to put my ideas to paper even though they're still stuck in my head. Why? Why can't I just draw?
I wish that someone was there to help me with this, to point me in the right direction, and actually help me overcome this once and for all. I'm sick and tired of this feeling... But I don't want to force myself into it either like I did before.
Which makes me think: What if my talent isn't in art? What if it's in something else? ... But then I have nothing else because art was the only thing I loved for the whole of my life ;_;
Wow I sound like such an idiot.
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No, you don't sound like an idiot and you aren't one either.
It's logical to feel like this at times.
Maybe it's just like sleeping sometimes you don't seem to catch any sleep but when you lay down and keep your eyes shut you still get rest.
Sometimes you might need a break/ some rest of drawing to start fresh again. You can always write down the ideas you've in mind after watching a film or serie. Then leave it for later and when you feel really like drawing just start drawing and it comes out automatically.
That's what usually helps with me when i feel like how you are feeling right now.
It's not like you've lost interest in what you love doing.
Because you say you still love to draw.
I know I'm not very good in helping or giving advice. But i always try to help where i can because i care about my friends.
Yeah that's true... I've been having problems sleeping lately as well. I just lie there for hours until I finally fall asleep - and it doesn't help that I'm ill, either.
Actually that's a really good idea! I have some ideas in my head that I wrote down on my phone, and it makes me feel tons better because I know that I'll never lose that idea. Thank you!
I just felt that I wasn't good enough to be an artist :/ I want to prove to people that I am, but I am so impatient and lack so much self-confidence.
Thank you! And no, you're advice helped me a hell of a lot ^^
Awww
Your welcome dear
Pleased to hear it makes you feel lots better
Pleased to hear you find it a good idea
aww I'm sorry to hear you felt like that
You are a brilliant artist
For me you don't have to prove yourself that your a brilliant artist, because i know that you already are that
Please don't be scared of the things where you feel less confident about. The best thing is to see it as something fun and as a new challenge. I'm always amazed when i see new art of you it's absolutely great in every way.
Your welcome
aaaww
I'm glad i could help you sweetie
Just remember I'm a note away or e-mail away when you need to chat. we can do it in comments as well. But if you feel more comfortable to talk private just know I'm in reach.
Yeah! It also helps me to sleep as it's taken stuff off my mind lololol
Thank you so much! That really means a lot to me <3 Thank you ^3^
Your support has been so helpful, and I'm so happy to have a friend like you ^^
Your very welcome dear
That's good it helps you to get stuff of your mind so that you can sleep
It's good to see you laugh.
your very welcome
Your welcome doll always here for you to support you in everyway possible
Pleased to hear it has been helpful sweetie
aww thanks you
I'm so happy too to have a friend like you